I feel like this is something I need to do. Something that I have been
directed to do. If I touch only one life, then it is worth it.
Ever since I can remember, I have been overweight. I remember when I was around 8 years old I got a cholesterol test done and it was over 200. This was when I was 8. 8! I have been on COUNTLESS diets, even when I was in 3rd grade, and have succeeded, but only for a limited time. Then I would gain it all back and then some. Then I would try the diet again, and would fail.
It wasn't easy being overweight, as many others who have struggled know. My school years were filled with tormenting finger pointing, snickers, loud laughs, and brutal comments: "Here comes the beached whale!", "Ba BOOM! Ba, BOOM! Ba BOOM!", "Fat ass!", etc. etc. It was EVERYWHERE! Elementary School and even at home. It was a never ending hell of which I continued to turn to food for comfort and cried an endless ocean of tears while doing so. Because I lived in an area where those who I went to Elementary School also were in High School, it NEVER let up. Then I got to Jr. High. I became borderline anorexic, only eating 1 meal a day (cereal, toast, and OJ, but only when I got home from school). I lost quite a bit of inches, but not weight. I remember being weighed for my Freshman year in High School and I weighed 190 pounds. The nurse looked at me and said, "You don't look like you weigh 190 pounds." I thought that was cool, because all that mattered to me was that I was in a size 13. Not anymore. I can't get away with that anymore. I'm older and wiser and now I have 6 little eyes watching me. What message am I sending them if I starve myself back to a size 13?
The most important part of this though, is for my children. Know that I LOVE YOU and that you can overcome ANYTHING
in your life. I hope and pray that at some point you can look back and
be proud of me and the journey I have taken to get healthy, and know that I did it for you.
Sierra, I love you and am proud of you for doing this! I hope you know I am here for you to lean on and talk to. You can even cry on my shoulder. You got this girl! Remember you are beautiful inside and out and your family and true friends love you no matter what! That is all that matters, that and being healthy! Go you!
ReplyDeleteSierra, you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think. You've already shown that by taking the first step and doing something brave by creating this blog. I'm SO PROUD OF YOU !!! I KNOW that once you start to believe those qualities in yourself you are going to accomplish amazing things and feel healthy, happy, and FREE!!! Youve got this !!! Im so lucky to work alongside such an incredible person! Please dont hesitate to come to me for a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on. YOU ARE INCREDIBLE!!!' And dont you forget it!!! Love ya girl !!!
ReplyDeleteGo for it, Gal! You can do it. Maybe it will inspire me...
ReplyDeleteWay to go Sierra! I know that you can do it!! Keep up the hard work, I'm proud of you!
ReplyDeleteSierra, you are so Awesome! I am SO proud of you doing what you're doing, and inspired by your strength, determination and desire, and laying it all out there. Thanks for your example. You have a lot of supporters pulling for you and I am one of them. Love you, my sweet daughter. :)
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