Not Any More

There was a time that I used to CRAVE the things that aren't good.  I would crave a good ol' Snickers bar, a bag of M&M's, Reese's Peanut Butter Cups, or a milk shake from my favorite shake makers (*sigh* Iceberg, how I miss thee).

Halloween is dawning upon us.  I realized this when I went to the store today and there it was, the aisle of everlasting toothache. Remembering back to last year, my mom and I would buy the good stuff for us to eat while we would hand out the not so good stuff to the trick-or-treaters. You know, the gum that loses it's flavor after about a minute and then turns to cold rubber in your mouth.  We probably would have already bought some to "snack" on this far out from Halloween. Then, after the kids came home from trick-or-treating, I would go through and throw away the stuff that my kids wouldn't eat, occasionally putting some of the good stuff aside for me, and my mom sitting there watching me and occasionally snatching some for her. (WOW! I was pathetic! Admitting this is SO embarrassing and FAR out of my comfort zone.)

I am proud to admit that I walked down that aisle today with NO twinge of desire. In fact, I had more of an overpowering urge of disgust and, quite possibly, a sympathetic onset of a tummy ache. I even caught myself wrinkling my nose and holding my breath as if it had a stench. Quite different from times past.

I have a decision to make this year. I'm not exactly sure what I am going to do with all the junk my kids come home with this year.  In the past, they have had 3 days of trick-or-treating: Spencer's work, our ward Trunk-or-Treat, and then going around our neighborhood.  They get about 3 buckets full of candy EACH from Spencer's work, 1 bucket full each from the ward, and about 1 1/2 buckets full from the neighborhood. (We don't let them go long because it is usually cold and they get tired FAST!)  I then sort through the candy and put aside the gross stuff to hand out at the door or throw away at the end of the night. (Come on! Who doesn't!?) One thing I DO know for sure, I will NOT eat any of the candy. There is just NO desire. Not any more. I am starting to see the same reaction in my girls. And, yes, it is VERY comforting.