Doubt

For a couple days now, I have had this "feeling" that what I was eating wasn't what I was SUPPOSED to eat. (That's why I haven't posted.) Which is interesting, because I am eating the same food that I have been for the past 8 weeks.  Funny how, when you start a journey, the feeling or attitude about that journey is a "Lets go get 'em!" kind of attitude.  Then, soon after starting, you start getting these feelings of doubt or fear that it isn't working.  It is similar to how I was feeling when I was in the "learning" part of this journey, before I actually started.

All the information I have received from past diets is still ingrained in me.  Count the calories, measure my food, low/no fat. I HATE counting calories.  I HATE measuring/weighing my food. And I HATE the taste of low/no fat food. (Not to mention it is PACKED with things that are NOT good for you.) When I started  reading the WOW book, I had SO many questions come up. "How can I lose weight eating bread?  Bread is BAD!", "I have been eating all this food that it talks about, but I haven't lost weight. Why?", "I'm just not understanding how this is going to work."  Then my sister said, "You are over thinking it."  She was right, I was over thinking it. So, I stopped over thinking it and just started to buy the whole grains and not buying anymore of the sugar packed stuff.

Doubt can be used as an evil tool.  It is very powerful. For some reason, it has crept back into my thoughts.  I'm not happy about it, but I know WHY it has come. I know now, more than ever, that THIS is EXACTLY what I should be doing. Doubt usually rears its ugly head when you are doing the things that you are supposed to be doing, and the WAY you are supposed to be doing it. Trials are a part of this life.  My oldest daughter has this TERRIBLE skin condition on the bottoms of her feet that leave them cracked and, sometimes, bleeding.  I don't know what triggers it.  We haven't found a "cure all" for it.  This is her trial.  This is something that she needs to learn to control and take care of in times of flare up.  This journey is the rope I have thrown myself to get me out of the hole I have dug for myself.  I just need to keep the faith that the rope will stay in one piece.  Every whisper of doubt that I succumb to with fear and confusion will be the rats that eat away at my rope. I WILL fail if that happens....and I can NOT fail!