Weigh Day

I weigh every Monday morning before I go walking.  I always have this fit of anxiety before I step on the scale.  I close my eyes and pray that I've lost something. "PLEASE let me have lost at least .5!" I've always done this when I weigh to check progress.  Of course, I feel more doubt than hope.  As I open my eyes, after what feels like an eternity standing there, the emotions of either success or failure come in a rush. Today, it was.....SUCCESS! I have, on an average, consistently lost 2 pounds a week by eating this way: more whole grains, legumes, veggies, fruits, and lentils.  I still get the fits of anxiety and I'm pretty sure I always will.  I know that as I gain muscle, there will be times that my weight will go up.  I know that weight fluctuates and that I will have water retention and bloating and that it will show on the scale. I know that I'm not perfect and that I will eat something that isn't accordance with this new lifestyle, but that is ALL OK! The important thing is, that I continue on this path of self discovery and health and not give up.  I won't give up!  I feel a difference, I SEE a difference.  Not only in myself, but my family too. Last night, I had to pick my mom up from the airport and it was during the time I would have made dinner.  I remembered that we had some popular brand boxes of rice and beans mixture in our pantry.  I told my husband that we could just eat those and so we did.  He had it ready when my mom and I got home.  It was salty and salty and salty.  Did I mention that it was salty? I could barely eat 1/4 cup of it. Last night, I had heart burn something AWFUL! I applied the essential oils I use for heart burn a couple times and I was able to sleep.  This morning, when I woke up, I was bloated and sluggish. I IMMEDIATELY blamed the rice and beans. My husband replied, "We haven't needed to worry about bad stuff in our food lately because it all comes from the ground."  He was is so right! I'm about 110% sure that the rice and beans mixture had MSG in it. Lesson learned. Now, what do I do with all the packaged processed foods we have?? I'm certain we will NOT be eating them again. As for my weigh day today, HOORAY FOR SUCCESS!!